Living on coffee and hope

I'm downing an extra large coffee at 2:07pm because I've been up since 11:30 last night. I know parenting is a challenge. Totally. But I'm convinced my kids, who are finally and strangely getting along, are plotting against me. I've been a light sleeper forever. I guess it's just in my nature. Since having kids, I've been even more alert while I sleep. Both boys were wide eyed and bushy tailed at 5:32 this morning. We even took Luke to the store to pick out a clock for his room, and unless he had to pee, he was told not to emerge until it read six-oh-oh. I mean, really, is 6am so much to ask? But these hellions of mine decide to play with the noisiest toys and make the loudest fire truck noises before 5:30am that I think someone might call DSS on me. Because what am I doing wrong? Just be quiet and sleep.

I had a whole list of things I wanted to get out when I thought of writing earlier and now they've just vacated my head because lack of sleep. My brain function tends to diminish after being awake for more than 24 hours (aside from a cat nap). Obviously not much sleeping going on when I'm up with a 22month old (ok, he's almost 2- I'll stop with the months when he hits 2 because that's SO annoying) who decides to kick me off the couch so I make a bed on the floor and he started snoring as loud as my husband so no sleep was to be had THEN(!!!!!) he falls off the couch right on to me..... So I move back to the couch and make sure he's nice and cozy on my bed on the floor and then not even 5 mins later stands up and decides to lay on the couch with me again. At this point I'm hugely debating getting rid of our couch and trading it in for an air mattress... But who wants to sit on an air mattress? No one, that's who.

And really kid, you've basically been wrapped around me all night, could you please just let me take a shower? No, you're going to cry and kick and scream at 6am? Thanks. I need a break and I'm crabby and whiny and this isn't the way I was hoping to start off my Wednesday.

Here I am half way through Wednesday and I'm already looking forward to bed time. Hence the coffee. I love them, I really do.

And if I read over this later, it's probably so disjointed and doesn't make any sense, so I'm just going to hit publish and leave it at that. Because I'm tired. And no one is reading this yet anyway.

Let's hope these kids are behaved and go to bed at a reasonable time tonight.

XO